My angels, my heroes and my friends

It’s been almost exactly 5 months since my mammogram and ultrasound that discovered my tumor and a little over 3 months since my surgery. SO much has happened I could not possibly catch up on all the details, but there are some very important aspects of this journey that I could not and would not forget to mention.

Being under-insured I had to clean out all of my accounts and still did not have enough to cover the surgery. And only being able to work half of what I normally did, due to Doctors appointments, phone calls and research, didn’t help either.  My life long friend Tova set up a GiveForward.com fundraiser and managed to raise over $4,000. This was very difficult for me to accept. Here I am fighting for my life and that stupid thing called “pride” just made it so difficult to accept that so many people reached out to me. Many of which did not even know me.

I am humbled that so many people reached out to me, to comfort me and pray for me at a time I felt lost. Family members, life-long friends, new friends and complete strangers all reached out. It is incredibly humbling and overwhelming when I really stop to think about it.

How do you put into words how much this means? I have thought about this non-stop for the past 5 months and I feel I am no closer to finding the “right words” to say, because “Thank you” just does not seem like enough. It doesn’t, but it’s all I have.

All I know is that this love and kindness I received when I needed it most will not be wasted and I will somehow find a way to pay it forward.

The GiveForward.com site has since been taken down because I did not like that the site showed up in a Google Search. I have clients that do not know and I am not yet to a point where I want to really make this public knowledge.

Before I took that site down (after the fundraiser was done), I posted a “Thank You” video. It is still hard for me to watch because it reminds me of the struggles I have been through the past 5 months and I am so ready to move forward. I don’t want to forget, but I am ready to let go of some of the grief, fear and sorrow that has been so prevalent the last 5 months.

But the most important thing is to “try” and express how thankful I am for the Prayer, Love and Support I received during the hardest time of my life. ❤

This is the Thank You video I posted.